i havent been this low in months
im fucking breaking down— just because of this stupid paper.
Wish I had somebody to talk to right about now
I certaintly wont miss Bita and i can say that honestly. Does that make me awful?
Im not sure if its my actual mother i miss or just the idea of her.
Why dont i have any respect for the people i should have respect for?
Everything hurts you know? and im just trying to get things done. because i cant live like this— suffocated and all.
Ive always had a hard time caring for people who actually deserve my concern. i dont know why.
Im starting to hate myself again, things are unraveling more and more as i get closer to the school year. Bad habits that i had hoped were long gone are each revealing themselves again, like little devils come to end me for good.
I fucking hate myself